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The following letter-form was brought about as a means of teaching my children the Word of God through the mail. And of course, quite naturally so, that’s the reason I begin these letters with "Dear Children" and end them with "Love Dad". So for the rest of you who participate in these weekly messages, please keep their original intended purpose in mind.
15 August, 2010
The title of today’s message is “In Memory Of Annie”, and it’s all about the woman I married on the 3rd of October 1975, who filed for divorce on the 26th of September 2000, was granted her divorce on the 19th of June 2001, and who likewise “gave up the ghost” on the 23rd of June 2010 and died.
Annie was my “wife” for 24 years, 11 months, 23 days when she filed for her divorce (9125 days), and she was my “wife” for 25 years, 8 months, and 16 days when her divorce became final (9391 days). Then it was only 9 years and 4 days from the day Annie divorced me until the day that she died (3291 days). So a total of 34 years, 8 months, and 20 days passed from the time I married Annie until the day she died (12,682 days). And looking at the big picture, Annie was 63 years and 4 months old at the time of her death (23,131 days).
So, what’s the big deal with all the numbers, you might ask? Well, numbers can have great spiritual import. Take for instance the number “23”: Annie was born on the 23rd day of the month (February 1947) and also died on the 23rd day of the month (June 2010), with the number “23” – as found in the Holy Bible – being associated with “death”.
And with that in mind, let me help you see the significance of the number “23” in Annie’s birth/death through the following real life story from my past. Because it was on the 23rd of September 2002 that I experienced a present-day reality of Acts 5:5 as Frank Gomez, the passenger in my truck, “gave up the ghost” and “dropped into Hell”:
“And Ananias hearing these words fell down, and gave up the ghost: and great fear came on all them that heard these things.” (Acts 5:5 KJV)
That’s the Scripture, and now for the story about Frank who I met when “homeless for Jesus” and living at the Rescue Mission of El Paso. You see I was working as assistant chaplain at the mission, and in that capacity the two of us had a very pleasant conversation on the 17th of September 2002. In fact I listened to Frank for about two hours. He not only confessed his love for Jesus during that time, but he also explained in detail his calling to “bring together the churches in one Spirit”. He told me all about his dedication to the Lord, and wanting nothing more than to serve Him with his life. By the time our little “session” was over and done with, I was thoroughly convinced that this man truly “knew Jesus”!
However, it was only six (6) days later that God ended Frank’s life while a passenger in my truck. And that was right about the time I asked God “WHY???” Why did Frank have to die…and why did I have to be the one to experience his death?
Well, that was my prayer, and it didn’t take too awful long to get His answer. Because the following paragraph is pretty much what the Lord said to me in regards to my question concerning Frank:
“For the past few weeks I’ve not only been giving you Acts chapter 5 as a reading assignment, but I’ve also been telling you that you will personally see professing 'Christians' drop dead like 'Ananias and Sapphira'…and all because they have lied to the Holy Spirit. Well Frank was only the first of many! Frank was a 'con artist' who accepted Jesus as his Lord and Saviour while in prison, but then went on to use God in his 'con game' once he got out. You were Frank’s next victim! And what you’ve just witnessed, with your own two eyes, was Frank’s 'body' reacting to his 'soul and spirit' dropping on into Hell. The sweat pouring from Frank’s body was the results of him entering the everlasting fires of Hell after being smitten by the Holy Spirit! You must use Frank’s testimony to warn other 'Christians' not to play around with God…because He ain’t nothing to play with!” (See “Frank Gomez – DOA!” at http://www.fmh-child.org/DOA.html for the full story.)
So, Frank played around with God… and God smote him!
And with that in mind, let’s get back to the number “23” and Annie. Because you see Annie’s death wasn’t that much different than Franks’… with the exception that it took much longer for it to become final. I mean the Lord God Almighty gave Annie a long time to think about her approaching death, as her body stopped functioning ever so slowly – piece by piece:
Degenerative nerve disease is a serious and sometimes life-threatening condition. Also referred to as neurodegenerative disease, this medical condition can affect various bodily activities such as walking, balancing, talking, breathing, heart function and other organ functions. The disease impacts these activities and functions negatively, by first destroying the cells that control these functions and eventually stopping the motor functions altogether. Some degenerative nerve disease patients lose the ability to be independent and care for themselves.
You see Annie came down with this very serious degenerative nerve disease after she made the choice to use God in her very own “con game” of taking me for everything I was worth ($$$). And as much as I hate to confess it, it was on the 25th of June 2010 (two days after Annie’s death) that the Lord confirmed Annie’s arrival in Hell while I was in prayer. As I heard her in the background the Lord spoke to me that it was Annie, and that she was now receiving the just rewards (punishment) for her sins.
That’s the way Annie’s life ended, but it didn’t have to be. In fact as we continue along with “In Memory of Annie” let’s see what the Lord had us to write about her in a few of our past sermonets. Starting out with “Jimmy Swaggart And His Spiritual Adultery!” [http://www.fmh-child.org/S4.21.02.html] we find the following excerpt:
"Wherefore, my brethren, ye also are become dead to the law by the body of Christ; that ye should be married to another, even to him who is raised from the dead, that we should bring forth fruit unto God." (Romans 7:4)
Now that particular Scripture kinda like reminds me of too many present-day marriages... which even included mine. You see I chose my first wife Annie based on what my flesh wanted instead of what Father God wanted. I wanted it my way and the Lord let me have exactly what I wanted! I really and truly loved Annie but it was because of the fact that she didn’t have a heart for God that the Devil used her in a mighty big way to try and stop me from doing the Will of my Heavenly Father. I wanted to serve God but she wanted me to do the opposite. So you see there came a time in my life where I had to make the choice to either obey the wife or the Father... because I definitely couldn’t do both!
In fact going back to the sermonet The New Beginnings And Pastor Hector Saucedo! (11/25/01), it was in that particular message that we exposed a few of the details of the Hell that I had to endure in order to obey God. In other words, even though I was still married to Annie at the time (she was my wife), I had to become dead to her in order to maintain my marriage relationship with Christ.
That particular sermonet was written 10 months and 2 days after Annie’s divorce had become final (306 days). And now for an excerpt from the sermonet that was written 5 months and 6 days after Annie’s divorce had become final (159 days) – “The New Beginnings And Pastor Hector Saucedo!” [http://www.fmh-child.org/S11/25/01.html]:
"…Beware ye of the leaven of the Pharisees, which is hypocrisy."
You see where Jesus was "headed to" in His message was what happens to folks (religious in particular) who don’t do what God the Father’s told them to do after they’ve heard what God the Father’s commanded them to do. It’s called "rot and corruption spewing forth from their living dead bodies!" And even though we aren’t going to uncover how this all happens in the human body just yet, hopefully, the Lord willing, we will do so very soon. Because when you take it on down to those two little old words "leaven" and "hypocrisy" you’ll find the amazing Truth of what goes on inside of us when we don’t do whatever it is that God the Father has told us to do.
So without getting too awful deep in the details, let me give you just a little hint of how this "rot and corruption spewing forth from living dead bodies" really works. As we’ve already discussed in Naturally Dead Until Spiritually Alive! (10/1/00) — part VI of How Do You Want Your Fire... Now Or Later? — the "human body" is made up of a body, a soul, and a spirit, with each of these three having the ability to be broken down even further as to their "natural body" or "spiritual body" components, so that every action performed by the human body is either directed by a "natural body" or a "spiritual body" influence.
And, taking this natural/spiritual thing on out to it’s completion, when the "natural body" is responsible for the "human body" doing whatever it does, the unimaginable results is nothing less than a continuous flow of death (rot and corruption) both in-side and out-of that human. However, on the other hand, when the actions of the "human body" are produced by the "spirit body", there is a continuous flow of life both in-side and out-of that same human.
Got the picture? Well, as far as the "natural body" side of things goes, Jesus used the word "leaven" in his command "Beware ye of the leaven of the Pharisees, which is hypocrisy" to describe what goes on in-side the human body (to heat up through fermentation) in order to produce the "hypocrisy" that flows out-of the human body (an action produced as the result of a false directive).
So is this "leaven and hypocrisy" thing deep enough for you? Well with the Lord’s help we’re gonna make it more understandable in our upcoming sermonets on the "human body and sin". However, until then, please believe me when I say that whenever you do anything other than what God Almighty wants you to do (His Perfect Will) you’re only producing death both in-side and out-of your human body.
…Because you see it was on April the 19th, 1991, that the Hallman Family, out of obedience to God Almighty, incorporated the FMH Children’s Club International in the state of South Carolina. I (Dad) was the president, Mom (Annie) was the vice president, and of course the reason we did it in the first place was "ALL FOR THE LOVE OF JESUS". That was what you might call our Early Beginnings... and very shortly thereafter all Hell broke loose in the Hallman Family with some very intense fire!!!
I mean can you even imagine what it must have been like when the South Carolina Department of Social Services filed a "child abuse" case against the president of the FMH Children’s Club International (Dad)... and they did it only one month (11/4/91) after the Early Beginnings story made the Myrtle Beach newspaper. Well to be perfectly honest with you, it’s truly amazing how much heat one rebellious Hallman child and the government was able to generate! In fact, even though I could go into all the "red-hot blistering" details, I’ll cut this part of the story short by just saying "all Hell broke loose with some very intense fire!!!"
Now please believe me when I say that the "child abuse fire" burned with "lots of heat" for a "very long time". In fact it was almost two years later, after Father God command the Hallman Family to "move to Texas and don’t turn back", that a cooler form of life even seemed remotely possible. But anyway, the Good Lord told me and the wife (Annie) to "pack it up and move it on out", and then the wife said "you and Luis make the move first and then the rest of us will follow."
So it was on the 27th of December, 1993, that one of my sons and I headed on out to Texas — fully believing that my wife and family would follow — only to discover shortly thereafter that the fire was getting hotter. Because you see it was just a few months later that the wife (Annie) made the declaration that "she had changed her mind and likewise decided not to move to Texas!" And once again, without getting into all the very painful "burning" details, it was about six (6) years later — as I struggled with my circumstances of no job and no money after having been fired from The Toro Company for doing God’s Will — that my wife of twenty-five (25) years filed for divorce... and what a divorce it turned out to be! I mean I now truly understand (a little bit better anyway) what Jesus meant in Matthew 10:22-25 about being one of His disciples: "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name’s sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved... The disciple is not above his master, nor the servant above his lord. It is enough for the disciple that he be as his master, and the servant as his lord. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more shall they call them of his household?"
You see it was due to my continued obedience to Father God’s Will that my wife (Annie) was able to throw-out some pretty harsh accusations during her divorce case... which sorta like gave me a new name back in South Carolina... which is nothing short of what the unbelieving Pharisees were calling Jesus. Because in the plain and simple of it, the word "Beelzebub" is just another name for Satan... which can be loosely translated as "the god of dung"... which I became when the Final Decree Of Divorce was issued in Annie’s favor on the 19th of June, 2001. (See A Christian's Divorce! (6/19/01) for the uncut version of Annie's demonically inspired divorce.)
And having gone through all that, you’d think I would be very angry with God for allowing it to happen. Well you might say that I’ve seen The Light when it comes to suffering for Christ, and I now understand "the fire" is absolutely necessary for God’s Salvation Process. Somebody had to bring down the fire on my head in order to make me a new man in Christ, but I’m just sorry it had to be Annie. Because you see what she’s done through her actions is nothing short of what we talked about at the beginning of this message. Annie did not obey God’s Will by moving to Texas and the result of her disobedience is that "rot and corruption have spewed forth from her living dead body".
I mean it was not God’s will for Annie to destroy the Hallman Family. I can personally testify that throughout this very long ordeal God the Father patiently pleaded with Annie to submit to His Will and become the loving supportive wife that I needed for the FMHCCI Ministry. In fact it was only several years ago that the Lord took Annie on a "trip to Heaven" in order to show her what she would receive "if" she would change her heart by obeying His Divine Will. However, it was only a few weeks after her refusal to be convinced by His first offer that Father God took her on a second journey... a "trip to Hell". Hell was what she was going to get if she continued rejecting God’s Will... and even though what she saw scared her so bad she couldn’t talk about it, she still didn’t change her ways!
Now the preceding sermonet – “The New Beginnings And Pastor Hector Saucedo!” – was written on 11/25/01 which was only 2 years, 5 months, 4 days before Annie had me arrested and sent back to South Carolina for not obeying the court’s ruling in her divorce (886 days). I was incarcerated until 8/20/04 – a total of 4 months and 1 day (123 days) – before being set free by the Lord God Almighty. (See “Jail Break – Busted Out By Jesus!” [http://www.fmh-child.org/S10.10.04.html] for more on the subject.)
However, it was during my time of incarceration that I had to go before the judge and be tested in my obedience to the Father. And it was during that particular court session that I saw Annie for the first time since December of 1996… and just as the preceding sermonet had predicted – “rot and corruption spewing forth from her living dead body” – she was bloated like a dead person that had been out in the hot summer sun too long.
It was terrible, but you can’t say that I didn’t warn her. In fact the following email was sent to Annie through Hadassah 1 year and 10 days before she had me arrested (375 days):
From: "bruce" [firstname.lastname@example.org]
To: "Hadassah Hallman" [email@example.com]
Sent: Sat, 19 Apr 2003 11:45:05 -0700
Subject: Please Tell Annie!
You must tell Annie that what she saw in Hell is real! Back when God Almighty was trying to get her to be the wife that I needed - a minister's wife - He took her on a trip to Heaven in order to show her what "submissive obedience" would get her, but when she didn't respond He then took her on a trip to Hell. He threatened her in a very powerful way but she didn't take it to heart... even though what she saw scared her spit-less. In fact it scared her so bad that she didn't even want to think about it "in her mind" in order to tell me what she saw. However, the one thing that she did tell me was that everyone there had the body of a maggot. She could identify who they were by their faces, but their body was that of a flesh eating worm.
Please take the time to visit Terry Watkin's site on Hell - http://www.av1611.org/hell.html. In fact the following excerpt from that site verifies what Annie saw:
"Jesus said explicitly — THEIR worm — not a worm, or the worm — but THEIR worm. The Bible teaches that Christians will one day have a body like the Lord Jesus Christ. Could it be, as some Bible students teach — that men and women in hell take on the form of their father, Satan (John 8:44)? In Revelation 12:3, Satan is described as a red dragon. Could Jesus Christ be referring to the body lost men and women will have for eternity?...In fact, Isaiah clearly says, "their worm shall NOT DIE". Even in our language, we refer to a living body as a "carcase". For example, "Get your carcase [body] in here". Why is that important? Because when the saved people in Isaiah 66:24 are "looking upon the carcases of the men that have transgressed" — And do you know what they are SEEING? "Their worm"! The "carcase" they are seeing is "their WORM that shall not die". The end of Isaiah 66:24 is a frightening endorsement of this interpretation. What the saved people are viewing Isaiah says is, ". . . an abhorring unto all flesh". And my friend, that is not JUST a normal flesh body they are looking at! It is something that will send chills screaming through your soul at the horror. And it will happen!"
You must help Annie escape Hell if at all possible. Several months ago a prophet from God prophesied that I would make Hell a little less hot for my ex-wife. I do not understand what he meant! But the following, as written by Terry Watkins, is not what I want for anyone... including my ex-wife Annie:
"And in hell he lift up his eyes, being in torments . . .
-As you leave your body — you realize something is happening. You hear a sound. . . getting louder and louder. . . screaming . . .weeping. . . wailing. Terror and fear beyond anything you could imagine overtakes you. "This can’t be happening!" you scream. Your nostrils are filling with the awful stench of burning souls. Your face ignites from the heat. Flames are now blazing from your eyes, nostrils, ears, mouth — every opening in your body, flames are roaring out. Your body is sizzling and crackling from the flames.
-Your body is now madly thrashing and convulsing from the horrible pain. "Why don’t I die?", you scream. You begin weeping and gnashing your teeth with the millions. "When will this pain stop?" But you know it will never stop. . .
-The darkness is so terrifying, it begins engulfing you. You feel something moving in the darkness. . . something horrible is happening. "No! No! This can’t be happening" you scream — as your worm is emerging.
-You begin cursing the day you were born. You scream — "Oh God, why didn’t you warn me?"— but you remember the preacher pleading with you to receive Jesus Christ. You remember reading that gospel tract. You cry — "God don’t you care?" — but you remember John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son,. . ." "God is a God of love — He won't allow this", you cry — but you remember John 3:36, ". . . he that believeth not the Son shall not see life; but the wrath of God abideth on him.""
That email to Annie through Hadassah was straight from the Lord… but she didn’t receive what God had to say! We even posted it 4 years, 8 months and 4 days later (1709 days) in our sermonet “Hadassah: The Disobedient Esther!” [http://www.fmh-child.org/S12.23.07.html]… but all to no avail for Annie.
It’s sad to say but Annie is now in Hell. And it was only a few days after her death that the Lord took me back to the Scripture that He gave me for her on 3/26/2000 - one year after I was fired from Toro for speaking God's Word:
“But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea. Woe unto the world because of offences! for it must needs be that offences come; but woe to that man by whom the offence cometh! Wherefore if thy hand or thy foot offend thee, cut them off, and cast them from thee: it is better for thee to enter into life halt or maimed, rather than having two hands or two feet to be cast into everlasting fire. And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: it is better for thee to enter into life with one eye, rather than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire.” (Matthew 18:6-9 KJV)
So just who were the “little ones” that God was warning Annie not to “offend”? The two primary ones were Arthur and Hadassah. They had accepted Jesus as their Lord and Saviour but were about to be tested in their faith by Annie. And as the following time-line points out, Annie did not heed God's warning but proceeded to “offend” the “little ones” through the power of Satan:
03/26/00 - The Lord gives Bruce Scripture from Matthew 18:6 to give to Annie. This was God's warning to Annie not to use Arthur and Hadassah as bait in her trap": "But whosoever shall offend one of these little ones which believeth in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and [that] he were drowned in the depth of the sea."
06/18/00 - Bruce stops his daily phone calls to the family in Loris, SC. They were no longer allowing the Spirit of God to rule in their lives. The Lord tells Bruce that since they were not willing to obey him as a father then the phone calls were of no value.
08/01/00 - Bruce receives e-mail from Arthur entitled You Fool: "Mr. Fool, You got 24 hours to get our picture of the Early Beginnings. I never want to see your ugly face again or I'll call the cops. It would be nice for you to send for any of the kidsnear us. Your responsibility as a father has failed in our book. When Mom gets her divorce you better sign it. You.ve made a fool around the world and continue doing it. You'll never learn until it's to late which it is to late. Your going to be off limits of us. And when I grow up I'll never forget what you did to me and my mother. And i'm never going to call you again. You got money for Jimmyu Swaggart but nmot for our clothes. People are already embaraased of how you treated us. We will survive. It's sad that you cant see that the devil is talking to you. When all this is over you will regret every bit of it.And that is all I have to say."
Annie successfully turned the “little ones” away from Christ and from their Dad. Then 5 months and 27 days later (180 days) the Lord had me to write the following letter to Annie, Hadassah, and Arthur warning them of their perilous spiritual condition:
22 September, 2000
Dear Arthur, Hadassah, and Annie,
I hope everything is going as well as can be expected. Suffering is not a very pleasant thing to go through and nobody really cares to do it but because of the human body and sin it is an absolutely necessary part of our lives. Please continue reading the sermonet series on How Do You Want Your Fire...Now Or Later? Those sermonets will help you understand how it all works.
As I was praying the other night, the Lord gave me the status on our family's salvation. Now I realize that with things the way they are you probably aren't going to believe me, but pray about it anyway. The Lord told me that currently there are three (3) people out of the possible nine (9) who would go to heaven if their life ended today. And out of the three (3) family members in South Carolina there is nobody ready to meet their maker. Neither Arthur, Hadassah, or Annie would be allowed in Heaven if they were to die right now!
Your perception of God has become twisted and distorted. Get back in the Word of God, get back on your knees in prayer, and get back to the place where your name is written in the Lambs Book Of Life. The things we will suffer very shortly are all designed to bring you back to God.
In the Lord,
That was my letter to the three, and it was sent in love. However, Annie took that same letter and used it in the court of law to win her divorce. She presented it as evidence to substantiate her claims that I have lost my senses (a religious nut).
Annie did not repent of her evil doings!
Annie now realizes that God's warnings were real… and so is Hell!!!
“But and if that servant say in his heart, My lord delayeth his coming; and shall begin to beat the menservants and maidens, and to eat and drink, and to be drunken; The lord of that servant will come in a day when he looketh not for him, and at an hour when he is not aware, and will cut him in sunder, and will appoint him his portion with the unbelievers. And that servant, which knew his lord's will, and prepared not himself, neither did according to his will, shall be beaten with many stripes.” (Luke 12:45-47 KJV)
Annie thought she could wait until the last minute and ask God to forgive her… but she waited until it was a little too late:
“I must work the works of him that sent me, while it is day: the night cometh, when no man can work.” (John 9:4 KJV)
So how much time do we have left to do the works that God has ordained for us?
Annie lived 23,131 days… and then she died!
Let Annie be a lesson to us all: THE TIME IS VERY SHORT!
So how much longer will you put God off? How much longer will you continue to tell Him “Not today Lord, but maybe tomorrow”?
Don’t wait until it’s too late. Keep the faith in Jesus NOW!
Dad (Bruce Hallman)
PS: On the 17th of June 2010, shortly before midnight, the Lord instructed us (John, Alan, and myself) to pray for Annie. During the prayer, as I sought the Lord for what to pray, He gave me the following. “It has to do with the divorce.” Then Alan spoke what the Lord had given him: “That which is hidden shall be revealed, that the truth come out. Lord thank You for Your mercy!” Then, approximately five (5) days later, Annie died.
PPS: See “My Natural Wife Was Annie… But My Spiritual Wife Is Sandy!” [http://www.fmh-child.org/S3.14.04.html] and “An Apology To My Children!” [http://www.fmh-child.org/S7.20.10.html] for more information on this subject.
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